Good morning ladies, I hope you have all been well. I have lacked the spoons for socialisation beyond the bare minimum for work, so I have been hibernating for a month. I don't know that it "Fixed" or modified anything, but at very least I feel up to being social again, so baby steps!
My ongoing work struggle saga culminated in working 42 hours in 4 days, and then my throwing a very well documented, very professional tantrum in front of the entire EU branch of our company during our weekly meeting. If I am to be expected to do the things, the things must work, and something needs to change. Part of this was hard due to my anxiety demanding absolute perfection from myself AT ALL COSTS, and part of it was me finally reaching the end of my rope. I was already making fondue out of string cheese, it's not possible to make fondue if I am given an empty larder.
It's a week later, and there are a few changes. They're putting in daily work on a new server for my invoicing to run on, with the maiden test voyage set for Wednesday after two weeks of tweaks. This should pull me back into the territory of finishing the cycle in 16-20h across 3 days, which is reasonable.
The other point of contention was the lack of communication and follow-through from my supposed peer in the US office... Y'all. Between not answering questions, redoing things I just did not even three days prior and lying about technical malfunctions of software when it was simply that she forgot to do something... wit's end. Without going into toooooooo many details, it's a tandem project, so she does one full cycle, and I do the other- but they should be more or less at the same place at any given point in time. The project needs ongoing maintenance, and the standard rate of that maintenance should be every 3-4 months... There are some aspects of the other cycle which are TWO YEARS behind. When it was clear she wasn't getting caught up, they asked me to loop in and help pull her cycle regular- so for six months I've been trying and failing because of the same vicious cycle of bad communication, excuses, and forgetfulness.
The end result of my tantrum is that she's now a direct report. I plan, she executes. Hail Caesar.
I will definitely be going home to Minnesota in January, and I am SO excited. We're actually staying there the whole trip, because anything else is a logistical nightmare, so I am thrilled to pieces and will hopefully be able to do EVERYTHING I want while we're there. And because my partner made the final call on us ONLY going there, he can't complain too much. I hope. Lol.