Anyone else struggling?

Oscaralley

Oscaralley

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I having a hard time doing anything. I feel so drained. Mentally, physically and emotionally. I can't sleep, I feel so sluggish and frustrated at work and I can't create any fun hybrids without so much struggle. I hate the way I am feeling. My Sadie girl's leg will NOT heal from surgery over two months ago and I'm very worried about her. The list goes on and on.

Anyone else feel this way? If so have you come up with a way to get past it?

Hope everyone has a GREAT weekend. I will do my best to try!
 
Yes! It comes and goes but certainly feeling drained and just in a funk! It is really hard this week since this week we were supposed to be traveling through Canada... So my phone reminds me daily of what the hotel reservations were and it's just so unnerving. I am trying to make myself get up and do things.. I've spent a lot of time this week in my classroom getting ready for summer camp which starts next week and I have spent a lot of time outside photographing things... unfortunately tick season is bad this year over here so I keep bringing in unwanted guests which doesn't help my mood. Just taking things one day at a time...
 
I feel like a huge lump of fat. Did I take the time I had and get healthy? Nope - we ate like crap, sat on the couch and binged Netflix and You tube, and gained 25 lbs. I hate it. I hate this about myself. I jumped on the scale because nothing fit and I was aghast. Now it's as hot as the west side of the sun here in Vegas and walking is out.

I'm always tired, my legs feel like lead, and my emotions are flat and drained. I'm grateful that my husband did not lose his paycheck, and we have enjoyed the time together, but it's draining to see everyone all tanked up and anxious and fighting on social media over masks, opening up, vaccines, Fauci...If not for scrapping, I'd go offline and run far away. As it is I shut down my FB page and started a small new one with a group of people who aren't so contentious.
 
I haven't sleep well in a few weeks. Keep getting up in the middle of the night checking the time, or thinking I'm hearing my father calling or crying for help. He lives downstairs from me and is wheelchair bound so falling is a strong possibility.

I was napping yesterday and I was woken up by my family playing a joke on me and I went off on a crying frenzy.
Well, I slept well last night and am very tired today.

Now my head feels twice as big as normal, my feet feel like weights and my throat is a little sore. I'm hoping it is allergies and not the dreaded Covid as I started work this week.

This think is taking a toll on everyone in their own way! Stay safe, stay well!
 
I am feeling anxious for different reasons....I am enjoying isolation too much and feeling conflicted thinking about restrictions lifting and social activities resuming. I will be having to decide what to wear each day (tracky daks and sweat top have been my daily ensemble for 3 months), having to fix my hair, put on a face, having to get up earlier, having to adjust to time commitments....Im not sure I want to make the effort. I think I might have been a mushroom in an earlier life :)
 
A mushroom? LOL! Us introverts prefer being inside. Three days back at work and I don't like it! The employees are not social distancing... not enough room... customers are doing a good job. Only had to tell one person, no mask, no serve. He went to car to get mask.
I see lots of people out and about wearing PJ bottoms and a t-shirt. We used to take a double look, not it doesn't matter. Do what makes you feel comfortable, unless work requires differently.
 
Elynnia said:
Yes! It comes and goes but certainly feeling drained and just in a funk! It is really hard this week since this week we were supposed to be traveling through Canada... So my phone reminds me daily of what the hotel reservations were and it's just so unnerving. I am trying to make myself get up and do things.. I've spent a lot of time this week in my classroom getting ready for summer camp which starts next week and I have spent a lot of time outside photographing things... unfortunately tick season is bad this year over here so I keep bringing in unwanted guests which doesn't help my mood. Just taking things one day at a time...
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I totally understand!!.... Trying to take one day at a time too!! Hugs!!
 
Pachimac said:
I feel like a huge lump of fat. Did I take the time I had and get healthy? Nope - we ate like crap, sat on the couch and binged Netflix and You tube, and gained 25 lbs. I hate it. I hate this about myself. I jumped on the scale because nothing fit and I was aghast. Now it's as hot as the west side of the sun here in Vegas and walking is out.

I'm always tired, my legs feel like lead, and my emotions are flat and drained. I'm grateful that my husband did not lose his paycheck, and we have enjoyed the time together, but it's draining to see everyone all tanked up and anxious and fighting on social media over masks, opening up, vaccines, Fauci...If not for scrapping, I'd go offline and run far away. As it is I shut down my FB page and started a small new one with a group of people who aren't so contentious.
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It's def a crazy time right now. I've gained weight too. Coworkers are being so rude! I've several times just wanted to turn it all off and just do NOTHING....I know that is the depression but geez!! And all the computer issues I've had in the last month has made me NUTS!!! Sending hugs!! It has to get better!!
 
LilyAnn said:
I haven't sleep well in a few weeks. Keep getting up in the middle of the night checking the time, or thinking I'm hearing my father calling or crying for help. He lives downstairs from me and is wheelchair bound so falling is a strong possibility.

I was napping yesterday and I was woken up by my family playing a joke on me and I went off on a crying frenzy.
Well, I slept well last night and am very tired today.

Now my head feels twice as big as normal, my feet feel like weights and my throat is a little sore. I'm hoping it is allergies and not the dreaded Covid as I started work this week.

This think is taking a toll on everyone in their own way! Stay safe, stay well!
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Oh I know I would dream about him too! I dream like crazy...makes me nuts. I scream, cry and now whisper. It's crazy!!
I sure hope it is covid. Hope you find out soon!! Get some rest my friend. Things have to turn around!
 
Jill said:
I am feeling anxious for different reasons....I am enjoying isolation too much and feeling conflicted thinking about restrictions lifting and social activities resuming. I will be having to decide what to wear each day (tracky daks and sweat top have been my daily ensemble for 3 months), having to fix my hair, put on a face, having to get up earlier, having to adjust to time commitments....Im not sure I want to make the effort. I think I might have been a mushroom in an earlier life :)
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OMG...I hear you!! That was one of the hardest things about going to work...picking out what to wear every day. It has helped in some ways to get up and have to go to work. Hang in there!! We will get through this!
 
I was, but then last week I listened to a really great meditation and did a reiki session with one of my friends. It helped HUGE! I am so glad that I did it. If you want the information, let me know.
 
I think most of us are affected by what's happening in our world. I go thru cycles of fatigue and disinterest, wanting to just sit and read or binge some shows. Then I perk up for a bit and focus on scrapping, doing stuff around the house, getting out with Taz...and then it starts up all over again. I just sit quietly for a few minutes throughout the day, off and on, just slowing my thoughts and breathing, just relaxing, to clear my head. I try not to watch the news too much and try not to think ahead, trying not to think of where all this is leading.

I also take a few minutes each day to think of what I am grateful for. I think it's important to try to find the positive admidst all the negative aspects of life right now.
 
I can definitely relate. My sleep has been a mess. Online teaching is really taking it's toll on me, between so much time in front of the screen and time worrying about my students who are struggling, etc. There have been some days when I pretty much shut down and can't force myself to do anything. Last week I cried just thinking about having to go to the grocery store. I just didn't want to go. Once I'm there (once a week), I'm fine.. but I can't tell you how many times I've driven through the parking lot and just kept going, unable to make myself wait in that line. I have gained about 10 pounds and feel crappy about that. Trying to get back on the bandwagon as far as healthy eating goes... should probably stop buying foods that I shouldn't be eating lol. I was walking nightly with 2 of my friends (who are sisters) but one of them broke bones in her foot, so we haven't been in at least a week. I guess I need to find new walking partners, but it's easier just to stay home. Ugh.
I was in my school yesterday to clean out lockers. I'm trying not to think about what's going to happen in the fall. I am so thankful that the last day for students is this Friday so I can take a break from all this.
Hang in there, everyone!
 
I used to be a teacher many moons ago. I can't imagine what the teachers have gone through this year. And many students through no fault of their own struggled to get through.
I hope (which I'm doubtful about) that school gets back to normal next September, but with social distancing, I don't know how that is going to happen in already crowded class rooms.
 
I can relate to almost everyone in this thread. Last week, I was feeling sorry for myself for an upcoming medical procedure. I am an office manager and one of my responsibilities is collections. I called an account that I have never had to call before. I was put through to their bookkeeper and was reminded of a HUGE life lesson. She explained she was late paying her bills because her husband has Stage 4 Brain Cancer and she's been out with him. She was currently sitting at her desk in her office, watching Hospice care for him over a live video feed. She should have had many more years with him and life has cheated her out of more time with her husband. I just sat there on the phone and cried with her. No matter how bad you think your life is, there is always someone, somewhere, who is suffering more.
So while I'm sitting here wallowing in my misery, my mind flits over to her. I could have it so much worse!
I admit though, scrolling through this thread, it does help to know that others are feeling this way, too. I'm not so alone.
 
I have one or two funky days, but for the most part, I am pretty good. I have enjoyed the isolation and I don't have to go back to work. It is all blessing. I think that that retiring at the end of March helped. Work was dragging my spirits down. I have a HUGE number of blessings, so I am one of the lucky ones. I wish I could help with the feelings and cheer you up. Big Hug.

Three things, I think, have helped.

1) Avoiding the news - I think the media is making an already difficult situation way worse. If they focus on the good stories, their readership / viewership drops. If I do watch or read the news, I work hard to remember that.

2) Walking every day - I get up around 5:30am every day, and at 6:30am I walk with my friend, Pam. We are out in the fresh air and we live in a beautiful place. I have to say the few times we have walked outside the gates has been terrifying. It is loud, noisy and the cars go over 25mph!! Plus there are no fairy gardens out there.

3) Not binge watching TV - doing something creative instead. I am a HUGE binge watcher, but I noticed I was feeling down on myself for wasting the day. I haven't been binge watching and if I do, I watch something that has a mildly amusing side to it, like Father Brown Mysteries. That really uplifts my spirits.

4) I will throw in a fourth one for free :) Take a shower when you are feeling low, or sit by a waterfall, fountain, ocean. The ions crashing together release something that lift the spirits. Technically, the negative ions in turn bond with neighboring smaller air particles, which gives the new compound an overall negative charge. The newly formed negatively-charged air molecules tend to occur near waterfalls or breaking ocean surf. Even flowing water from showers can result in negative ions. The benefits of negative ions on the human body can include an increase in the rate at which serotonin (a hormone linked with mood) is oxidized in the bloodstream as well as the interception of microbes and germs in the air. The effects of negative ions have been known since 1789 when a European monk noticed and wondered how medical patients responded to changes in the electrical state of the air they were breathing.

That, by the way, is not medical advise. It is 'Mum' advise. The kids ALWAYS felt better after a shower, so that is where I sent them when they weren't feeling well. Try it when you are feeling a bit unwell, too.
 
I had a full blown mental breakdown this morning, to be honest I’m not in a good place. Family life is good it’s everything going on outside this house that has me lacking sleep and loosing it. I spent the morning crying and cursing life. This is honestly not ME, my prayers go out to those who struggle mentally or emotionally on a daily basis. No lies this $£*/ is hard. I need an off switch for my brain and emotions.
 
Ellasspace said:
I had a full blown mental breakdown this morning, to be honest I’m not in a good place. Family life is good it’s everything going on outside this house that has me lacking sleep and loosing it. I spent the morning crying and cursing life. This is honestly not ME, my prayers go out to those who struggle mentally or emotionally on a daily basis. No lies this $£*/ is hard. I need an off switch for my brain and emotions.
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Ella - I am so with you today! And reading through this does help a bit in making me feel not quite so alone. Life is hard! I have had to give my load to my Heavenly Father way too often lately. I just can't do it. I love your list Lynnie and really need to get my butt out of the house and walk! I know that will make a big difference but it is hot and I so do not like the HOT.
The lacking sleep and trying to turn off my brain is something I am not used to. I have always been able to sleep and never had the anxiety that I am feeling as of late. Ekkkkk. Can all this be over yet?
 
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