Just Breathe- By Ginger

[GingerScraps]

I wrote this in 2005. After a long battle with Endrometrosis I had to have a total Hysterectomy. All removed. my uterus, my ovaries, tubes, cervix, and lots of surrounding tissue. As well, as bladder and bowel repair. It was a very hard time in my life!!
The words Just Breathe got me through it. If I was unable to do anything else... All I needed to do was

Just Breathe

Curled up in a ball,
A fire within my womb.

I know there's something wrong,
Surrounded by feelings of doom.

Doctors, nurses, surgery,
Shots and pills and prayer.

I am so sorry to tell you, IT is everywhere.

Sitting in my hospital gown, all it quite and still-
The Holy Spirit surrounds me-

I completely trust His will.

Like so many times before, He whispers in my ear-
The two simple words that I need to hear.

The nurses are talking,

She's only 26. What a shame.
Someone calls my name.

It is time-
I drift to sleep-
Not sure if I will awake.

That would be OK-
Ive had all that I can take.

Cold, bright, shaking, fear,
Startled I open my eyes.

A tear rolls down my cheek-
A part of me dies.

I close my eyes and meditate on the words he has given to me.

JUST BREATHE

Ginger- 2005

[Jodi]

Fantastic! You are an artist. :sculpt: Gave me chills and brought a tear to my eye. Sorry you had to go through that. I couldn't imagine how hard that would be.

[Harmonystar]

Beautifully sad Ginger. I too struggled with Endrometrosis, but aparently not as badly as yours. I was misdiagnosed early on so I dealt with the pain for several years till my hubby finally convinced me to go to a specialist. (small town girl, never had a gynacolagist). The doc guessed it on symptoms alone. I panicked. We had been trying to have a baby for nearly 2 years, would it mean I never would? Fotunately the surgery went well and they said I'd still be able to have a baby. 7 more months of that horribly disappointing period coming around and finally I was pregnant. We've been very blessed. My heart goes out to you Ginger. Beautiful poem to express yourself.

[GingerScraps]

Thank you ladies

[Misty]

Ginger, that's a beautiful poem. It gave me little chills and goosey-bumps to read that about you. Thank you for sharing.

[nutsaboutgabe]

Great writing Ginger. It totally made me cry and I can't even relate on that same level.

[StephanieUlrich]

What a personal and moving poem. Thanks for sharing Ginger.

[knittinjen]

Oh, wow. I'm sitting here bawling at work. I'm so sorry that happened, but so glad you trusted God thru it all. So glad He was there for you and you knew it. Thanks for sharing. Wow. wow.

[canadianmommy]

Wow, beautiful, whenever I feel like everything is just going crazy in my life I repeat those same words, over and over,

[justjen]

Oh My! It brought a tear to my eye, and a lump in my throat! I wish people would quit making fun of me for having so many kids.... I've had 9 misscarriages, and I know it's God's will, but I am always thankful that I am able to have children. Whenever I am feeling down, I shall come back and read your poem. It means so much to me, thank you for sharing your heart!!!